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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 12:11

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I will be 64.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

What is your biggest mistake or regret?

Im still living with it.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She was in good health!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Why does my private parts itch so much during certain periods?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I was 9 years of age.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

So whats the point in blame.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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But im dying ,and its too late for me.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

What's the point of gender reassignment surgery which doesn't change a person's chromosomes?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And i lived it daily.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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Comes on , in middle age.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Which fish tastes good for South Indian curries?

One cannot live in the past .

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

When you visit a store, do you go to shop or buy?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Are the seasons in Ireland different from those in Scotland, England, and Wales? Or are they just milder versions of each other?

He knew the spot.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I was scared of men, in general

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

What did i know ?

Why did i forgive my father ?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He resisted the act ,that day.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She married twice! .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But, we were locked up after school.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I did it because my mum asked me too!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

We were not on the streets..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

When she asked me how she looked .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Was to survive, this bastard.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But ive been too sick for many years..

My life is so biszare .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

She found it foreign!.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I said to her

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

She loved him until the end.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But it wasn’t much.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

We all went to grammer schools

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I was seconnd youngest,

I could never make a relationship work though!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

All the time i was locked up.

I couldn’t, believe it.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

It was going to be , some day.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She wouldn,t have been !

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I write beautiful poetry .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Put me off passion for life!!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I waited trembling.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I was very sick at this time too.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

My family never makes their pension either.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Especially a lifetime of it.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

This is soul school!.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I think the readers, may guess!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I don,t even have a pension.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Ive learnt so much.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Would this be the day?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I have no regrets .

Who then, do I blame.?

So, i spoilt her more .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.